378. Instant Regret

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I really want to trust you.

To let you in…I do.

More than anything I wish I could,

Have the faith you do.

My heart, it is in pieces,

And aches of a bitter kiss.

Yet, I’ve grown so used to the pain…

Sometimes I hardly notice;

Until someone arrives,

With their expectations,

They trust me not for I can’t do the same,

And are angered by my complications.

Trust is earned with time and care,

Both of which you will not give.

Then tell me why should I just trust you,

When you instantly regret what you give?

K. Aldaya, 12/20/16

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220. I’m a Fake

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Speak.

Words removed.

Sudden release.

Burdens proved.

Speak….

Regret swift.

Fake again,….

Pretend lies drift!

Speak,

No! No sound.

Or ye shall,

Be assuredly drowned.

K. Aldaya, 07/02/11

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