You say aloud you love me,
But why spoken so easily?
When in but one brief moment,
You clearly do hate me,
As nothing’s given back quite as nice as you’ve lent.
Your love’s a constant danger,
What will you do for love?
I know…you’d take out all my bad shown.
Seen evident hither,
Where you stake your cross-branding e’er ceaseless atone.
You’ve placed your throne of judgment high,
For God’s commands to enforce.
Now aren’t you God ill-bent?
To play God o’er all you choose to love as sins’-source?
But O’ self appointed God,
I don’t care anymore. I’m tired.
Do what you want. I give up.
I can’t e’er fear to trod!
Kill sin-flesh if you must.
Pass ’round my bloody cup.
Spread the cup to every mouth,
So they can speak too of my sins,
But remember this, King of Kings,
When blood-drips from your mouth,
A God of heaven may be listening,
And bears spotless, white wings.
K. Aldaya, 6/12/05
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